for michael

you saved me. you saved me when life was growing too heavy on my small shoulders. you saved me from myself too, in a way. you are my life jacket. when my ships are sinking, i run to you and you hold me. you keep my head above the crashing waves and you keep me warm in your tight embrace. even when my ships aren't sinking and i just think that they are, you're still there and the waves never touch me then. you're better than a life jacket. i think you're my rescue boat. i love you deeply, you know. it's almost unexplainable, in a way, but i'll try to explain it anyways. when i see you, i smile. when you hold me, i feel like i'm at home. when you hold my hand, warm and tight, i feel safe. whenever i fall asleep without you next to me, i feel uneasy. and then, as soon as you slide under the covers and put your arms around me, i fall into a deep, easy sleep. and i'm genuinely happy. i love your smell. i remember when we were in high school and i used to borrow your sweatshirts so i could cuddle with them at night time as i fell asleep. you're different from everyone else in the world - you don't care about what people think about you. you live! you actually live! so many people take life for granted, but you...you never do. i admire you. we've been through so much together...times when we couldn't stop laughing and times when we couldn't control our tears. you know me better than anyone else. i want everything with you. i want everything for you. you're amazing and you don't even realize it. you're going to go so far in life, i just know it. and i am forever yours.

all my love,
your girl.