catherine is getting married this saturday. my best friend is getting married in three days - how strange is that? it seems like only yesterday we were cuddling up next to each other one of our tiny twin-sized beds, listening to the backstreet boys and giggling. cooking more top ramen and macaroni & cheese than anyone could possibly eat. watching scary movies late at night and then being so scared that we had to go get every bible and rosary in the house and put them in catherine's room so that we could actually fall asleep. camping out in our backyards. our trip to nevada, when we saw the exorcism of emily rose & had to stay alone in a house with a seemingly demonic cat. watching titanic and rumpelstiltskin over and over and OVER again, until we had the scripts memorized. hula-hooping in the driveway. girl scouts. our tradition. it really only seems like yesterday.
but time does not wait for anyone. the clock ticks, and sometimes it leaves you behind.then all of a sudden, reality slaps you in the face and the rush of blood to your cheek also brings the rush of...adulthood? i suppose. because we are no longer children. we have bills to pay, jobs to keep, and people we cannot bear to disappoint. we have many expectations and not too many "get out of jail free cards" or "do-overs". forgiveness doesn't come as easy as it used to. i guess that's okay though...it's expected (there go those expectations again!).
i'm excited for the wedding though - i think it'll be fun. i have to make a toast and i'm pretty nervous about that. i always get nervous about little stuff. because really, this toast doesn't need to be perfect. it just needs to get the message across that catherine is my best friend, i am happy for her and i wish her and eddie the best....and everything else is just a side-note.
i really need to write more. writing doesn't come as easily now as it used to. it seems forced and it doesn't flow. practice, practice, practice.
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