two years.

i can't believe that it's been two years since then. i wish you could see how far i've come -- you'd be really proud, i think. i graduated high school last year, i moved into my own apartment and i'm in college. i have a job at city hall now and i think you'd be really happy about that too. today was catherine's wedding and it was really hard at some points. it made me think about when the time comes for me to get married...i always wanted you to walk me down the aisle. and it makes me angry and sad that you can't. i think i'll have my brothers do it....but i have a lot of time to think about that, since i am in no rush.

i still miss you. i'm pretty sure that will never change.

"you are not alone" by michael jackson came on today & it made me cry.



"Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold"

...


"But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone"

i'm not alone. i know that. i will never be alone. i still talk to you in my head sometimes and you can call me crazy but i think that you hear me. i hope you do.